::sighs::

There's so much shit going on in my life that makes me disappointed right now.

It all stems from being unemployed. I feel awful that Derek has had to pay all my bills these last 2 1/2 months. And he's starting to get really upset. Not to mention that we are currently in the process of being sued by one of the contractors that built our house. Our builder declared bankruptcy, and our title was clean (no lien on it) when our contract was finalized. But none of the contractors got paid...and they are now coming at us like we owe them the money. And I'm sorry, but we bought this house fair and square, have never missed a payment or ever been late on one...hopefully this whole thing gets tossed out of court.

Today I went to the mall to see my friend Cami, and pick up applications from just about every single store. Right about now everyone is hiring for seasonal...so I'm crossing my fingers for at least something.

We can't find Derek's jacket for the pictures :-( So tomorrow I'm going to goodwill to see if I can find anything remotely similar...or remotely the right size. I can always alter it if it's too long or whatever. Speaking of GoodWill. I was looking around for a cafe table from family members, but no one had one. So I went to good will....found a rusty cool base, and a round glass top. Voila! Cafe table!!! $2.99 for reals!!! And it'll make a good out door side table too methinks.

We were going to go to California for Derek's birthday, but that's probably not happening now. I am supposed to pay my $1k tuition by December 1st, and they wont let me set up my usual payment plan on that so looks like I may have to re register. And I probably wont be going to Minnesota for Christmas to see my grandparents (dads side) before they die more than likely.

Man, this is shitty.